This stuff always makes me mad. I know people mean well but when it's hypothetical and on videos it's all support and love. But when it comes to real life problems and actual suicide none gives a shit about you. And noone cares or wants to do anything to help.
It feels like it's all for show.
I fucking wish I was never born and that I was dead
Sometimes there is someone who cares and really will want to help you. Sometimes you won't even know it. My friend's brother killed himself. That really hurt my friend. He now does everything he can to make sure all his friends are doing ok and when I start to feel suicidal I know I can go to him and he will do everything he can to make me feel better.
Sometimes all the love and support from friends and family isn't enough to make the pain go away. Sometimes suicide is the only way out.
And for some people, there really is no one.
I don't know you or your situation, but I hope you can figure things out. Take a close look around you and think about if anyone actually cares. Try to get therapy or help or make close friends who will care about you to make the pain go away. Or don't, if you don't really want to. But either way, I hope you can do whatever you feel is best for you.
well my online friend didn't seem to care much. i donno. she didn't even try to stop me. maybe she's just tired of my constant suicidal thoughts and mental breakdowns. i sometimes wonder if she even wants me to be her friend.
my family will care and be sad. but they're abusive and horrible and will make life horrible for me if they find out i'm suicidal. id on't wanna do anything with them. I just wanna forget they exist.
i know my sister (not my blood sister but i call her that) would be pretty sad. that's why I haven't done it yet. tbh it was initially this. but lately i've gotten very scared of the pain and idea of death. so now that's added on top.
i've tried theraphy a trillion times. non of them could help me. the last one told me they can't help me unless I get out of iran. because they can't help me when I have an open wound. they said they can only help me once i'm actually safe
What I think is you should respect death. You may think death is an easy way out but it could be it actually isn't, death has a timer. Messing with it could bring no good. Thats the thing, people think everything will end after death, what if it doesn't? Maybe living is easier than being dead even if you have it harder compared to others.
People like that usually welcome it when it comes by itself. Spiritual people. But there are others who doesn't think about death in that way, they think they will shut down and dissapear forever (non spiritual people in this case). Well you can shutdown all that negative emotions with medications and help too. Medications are way out of your reach? There are free services available in most countries. The thing is the majority got other ways to save themselves without suiciding but they seek death like its attractive. Thats why depression its called an unbalance. Its goes from point A to point Z in a short time. Ignoring everything else. Btw nobody mentioned hell. My comment is based in that death could be difficult for everyone. It has nothing to do with religion.
Due to all of this, the best advice is to seek help.
i'm not really religous or anything like that tho.
and i doubt it is. the way i see it it seems to be that we're all chemical computers. when we get shut down we don't even know nothing. just like the gap between falling asleep and your dreams. or waking up. even if it's no good we have to face it eventually right?
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u/LavendarAmy Aug 13 '21
This stuff always makes me mad. I know people mean well but when it's hypothetical and on videos it's all support and love. But when it comes to real life problems and actual suicide none gives a shit about you. And noone cares or wants to do anything to help.
It feels like it's all for show.
I fucking wish I was never born and that I was dead