well my online friend didn't seem to care much. i donno. she didn't even try to stop me. maybe she's just tired of my constant suicidal thoughts and mental breakdowns. i sometimes wonder if she even wants me to be her friend.
my family will care and be sad. but they're abusive and horrible and will make life horrible for me if they find out i'm suicidal. id on't wanna do anything with them. I just wanna forget they exist.
i know my sister (not my blood sister but i call her that) would be pretty sad. that's why I haven't done it yet. tbh it was initially this. but lately i've gotten very scared of the pain and idea of death. so now that's added on top.
i've tried theraphy a trillion times. non of them could help me. the last one told me they can't help me unless I get out of iran. because they can't help me when I have an open wound. they said they can only help me once i'm actually safe
It sounds like she cares and you trust her. I don’t think she would be upset to help more, in fact I suspect she would want to if she knew. Glad to know you have someone close to you in your life that you trust though. As a stranger on the internet, I wish I could help more.
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u/LavendarAmy Aug 13 '21
well my online friend didn't seem to care much. i donno. she didn't even try to stop me. maybe she's just tired of my constant suicidal thoughts and mental breakdowns. i sometimes wonder if she even wants me to be her friend.
my family will care and be sad. but they're abusive and horrible and will make life horrible for me if they find out i'm suicidal. id on't wanna do anything with them. I just wanna forget they exist.
i know my sister (not my blood sister but i call her that) would be pretty sad. that's why I haven't done it yet. tbh it was initially this. but lately i've gotten very scared of the pain and idea of death. so now that's added on top.
i've tried theraphy a trillion times. non of them could help me. the last one told me they can't help me unless I get out of iran. because they can't help me when I have an open wound. they said they can only help me once i'm actually safe