This stuff always makes me mad. I know people mean well but when it's hypothetical and on videos it's all support and love. But when it comes to real life problems and actual suicide none gives a shit about you. And noone cares or wants to do anything to help.
It feels like it's all for show.
I fucking wish I was never born and that I was dead
Right? My brain doesn't want to be here in some fundamental level. It's fucking wired wrong or something.
The people who "should" support me don't give a crap anymore, I can't afford more treatment/therapy that probably won't work, and all the platitudes and bullshit are meaningless. And sending that list of suicide hotline numbers? Seriously?
I've tried to get better, I've tried to leave, but nothing worked and I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
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