This stuff always makes me mad. I know people mean well but when it's hypothetical and on videos it's all support and love. But when it comes to real life problems and actual suicide none gives a shit about you. And noone cares or wants to do anything to help.
It feels like it's all for show.
I fucking wish I was never born and that I was dead
Nah bro, you just made a bad decision and hate yourself for it, there is absolutely no reason you should be trans. You were depressed, thought it was the problem and then when in fact it wasn’t, you became even more sad. You can still quit this trans bs, it will make you more happy
you think I didn't try to live as a cis man before I decided to transition?
you think I didn't hate myself before?
you can be an edgy scum and a parasite on society and take your anger all you want on random people on the internet, but you can never hate me as much as I used to hate myself before transition. and I still transitioned because of that.
you know it's funny, most trans people have been their own biggest transphobes before transition. constantly telling themselves "they'll never be real women" etc.i told myself "it's just depression" or "it's just the internet getting to me" until I learnt to accept myself.
my life has improved 10000x on hormone therapy. God I'd be genuine dead if I hadn't gotten hormones. I genuine was close to attempting it now. Nowadays i only think about it. I never was alive before. I remember, always being a cold shell, without anything, without feelings, all harsh and cold. now I'm a warm caring gentle person, I care about others, I do things for others. I just.. "live"
living is hard. but i'm living.
you absolutely privileged idiot cannot understand how people like me living In expressive countries like Iran have a hard time. you don't understand that being trans isn't the only thing wrong in my life. it's living in a country where women can't go out without hijab, a country where you can't even be sure if the shower you take today will be your last. you can't even begin to imagine life here.
do you think i'd be this miserable if I could afford facial feminization?
do you think I'd be miserable if I could afford my bottom surgery?
do you think i'd be like this, if I could be myself, get out of my room, make friends etc?
for people like me, a lot of times life will be hard, but when we get suicidal to this extent, it's not being trans, but rather how hard it is to be one in this society. for some people (not most of trans people). we're always gonna have dysphoria. just like a wheelchair user is gonna sometimes wish they could play basketball and run. but if we get support and all that, a lot of us live very nice and happy and lovely lives. remember that a lot of inventions and advancement in science today was done by us, trans people. a huge contributor to the arm architecture and chips (powering most phones today) was a trans woman. A huge contributor to a lot of tech was a trans woman in IBM who came out because she thought a company like that would be progressive, but she got fired.
i hope one day you wake up, get your head out of your butt and realize, that there's a far more wonderful, beautiful world waiting for you if you choose to be kind and not bigoted, when I was a kid i was like you. I grew up in a shitty country as I said where racist is the norm, were hate is the only answer, where the only definition of "fun" here is hurting others. when we bought the adsl and connected the router for the first time to my computer, I never forget that, very shortly after that, I learnt english from the internet, and met amazing people, who showed me kindness, and love, and then I realized... what a bitter world I lived in. my definition of fun was absolutely agonizing. I lived in such a bitter sad world it was disgusting.
I hope one day you can step out of your mindset and be someone nicer.
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