Okay so the homestead isn't my only dream.

I want to make my own graphic novels. But I have to be able to afford classes because I really do need guidance to get my art where I want it to be. And so I need a job to pay those bills, but I also need two to three hours a day to draw and write.

This job don't give me that, and it's not really a dream I want to sacrifice.

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I mean I understand enough about computers to manage the system of a single organization. That would be a much more comfortable means to an end.

But this is a handful of people managing hundreds of organizations. The workload is pretty ridiculous for a newbie.

I'm just...not cut out for existing in a constant state of stress. It's exhausting and the days just pass and I stop enjoying life.

I'm interested in it on a surface level. Like you'd be interested in the topic of a documentary for awhile and then move on. But I actually don't really like the process and I don't feel any connection to the purpose of the job.

That coupled with really not liking the work. But I mean it pays more than anything I've ever had and there is potential for the company to grow exponentially.

Make money. I've been drifting for a long time doing odd jobs back to back and I've been having trouble finding a career path that I don't hate.

I mean eventually I want to fuck off and move to the middle of nowhere and build a self-sufficient homestead.

Hmm. I want to pick one but it feels like a bit of both. I will admit, all I knew about this field is that it paid well for what my friends described as minimal work. Sitting in a desk fixing computers and googling solutions.

Irl it's installations, organizational setup and configuration, inbound and outbound shipping for warranty fulfillments. I have to fill my head with a database of common passwords for the sake of saving milliseconds during every task.

Okay well if we're being honest then I guess you're right and I am kind of blaming the job.

Because the truth is, this profession requires a large and continuous uptake of information and I really just don't want to fill my head with any of it.

I am just finishing up my second week. I know, it's not long and I should give it more time but I now know what I don't know. And it's a lot.

I don't think this is something I can pick up on the fly, especially since it's a smaller organization and people are rarely available to guide me.

I mean it's a team of like 7 guys. I'm definitely in full-on panic mode 24/7, but I am learning a lot and I'm really grateful for the opportunity.

I'm just trying to figure out what my future is in this industry because realistically I don't see myself lasting here. It's just business, nothing personal.

The role on my offer letter said IT Technician.

I can handle PC setups, O365 access, and application installations like Adobe. I can speak on the phone with clients and create tickets. Anything with a GUI, I can handle.

Anything with the command line, networking, server issues, active directories, etc. I need help. Because before this job I've literally never done any of this. I don't have the muscle memory, and when an opportunity arises to learn, the problem is typically urgent as the client just needs to be operational so they can't really take the time to break it down to me.

Maybe I'm just dumb, but I need to understand the function of every application before I can understand their relationship to each other.

No they knew that I was green. They knew who they were hiring. I think demand just changed as expansion started happening. There was someone else there who was green like me, and he was here for a month and a half. I asked him for advice and he told me to stay positive and that you learn with time.

He was terminated the next day, lol.

I asked why he was let go, and they said that he couldn't do a ticket on his own and took an hour to do something that should take 15 minutes. And that's me to a T right now lol. Granted I've only been here two weeks, but still.

Shadowing would be much more likely in a larger organization, but here when things get busy, everyone has something to do. So me shadowing is just putting too many resources into a problem that doesn't need it. I shadowed a lot for onsites when I first started, but I haven't been assigned anything in like 9 days. I mostly just sit at my computer reading documentation until someone assigns me something, or I see something on the ticketboard that I know how to do.

Honestly it just makes me feel awful when we have a rough day and everyone is exhausted, but I'm just sitting here looking for something I can do.

The owner of the company says I'm doing fine, but I don't get much interaction with my direct report. He told me to focus on onsites and that he'll assign me tickets, but it's been over a week and he hasn't assigned anything to me. Also, the newer people are picking up tickets on their own.

Chester Bennington.

Linkin Park was my entire middle school to high school. I stopped liking them after Minutes to Midnight and a friend from high school invited me to go to a concert. I declined because I didn't like their newer music.

And on the week of the show I was invited to he killed himself. I felt like such a rotten prick.

But...social media sites don't ban people for different viewpoints. They ban people for spreading misinformation repeatedly...

OP has zero problem solving skills.

What is political about it? Capitalism is an economic philosophy.

But we can’t all stay together forever

No but we can stay together as long as we want to. You can go and experience your own life while staying at or close to home.

When my mom dies, I want to look back and feel like I spent enough time with her. I don't want to spend my whole life wondering what kind of person she was.

And if I'm financially stable and I contribute to the family, we have a healthy home environment. What's wrong with that? Having to move out is capitalist dogma and it's bullshit. I love my parents and I want to be around them.

Literally just tilt the can over

I mean yeah. Nothing is guaranteed and anyone of us can die at any time. It's not unusual to want to spend as much time with people you love as possible knowing full well the finite nature of mortality.

In western society. Many cultures stay with their families.

With VR headset to boot. Never leave the house again.

I would rename Now You See Me 2, to Now You Don't.

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I've literally never heard a funny conservative comedian, and that's not because I get offended. It's because none of them make intelligent observations and they're all just ranting on a stage.

Even Bill Burr, who is further left than center probably, can come off as really ranty and lecturing when it comes to cancel culture or millennials.

When comedians get like that it's not funny. Carlin was good because even though he ranted, his observations were smart and he presented his ideas theatrically.

A red neck talking about dumb libruls is not funny.