Still alone like single or still alone like you’re enjoying a moment of peace and quiet?

I’m currently feeling overwhelmed. I said to my wife I wish we knew the neighbors, so she made a “donut party” and invited her friends and the neighbors. I’m also feeling overwhelmed because I took over a tech event and I’ll be in front of a crowd of tech folks. I’m introverted.

I hate parties and groups and yet I keep throwing myself to the wolves.