How to live for 300 years without depending on anyone but only praying to god ? Isn’t god said:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Oh, ok, I get what you are saying.
Well, unfortunately those are problems of a caliber that I wouldn’t be able to solve for you. Nor do I think that anybody else here can.
A (somewhat vague) answer for your first point might be that you need to change your perspective. But that is easier said than done and I don’t want to pretend that I know how shitty your live might actually is.
For your second point, it is at least very good that you were able to recognize bad content on your own. Many people fail that.
You could try to find drastically different videos from different groups of people. Again, I know this is easier said than done.
I think most people on Lemmy are strictly against religion, so I don’t think you will find much help in that regard here.
Maybe as a starting point, you could try to find resources from a totally different group of people. Depending on your exact questions you might want to watch videos about what people of other religions might have to say about that.
Like, if you want to know more about something from the old testament you could try to watch videos from jews, or if you have questions about Jesus you could look up what the muslims have to say about that.
I wish you all the best! Try to endure until you know, what it is you can strive for.