NGL actually something I used while cataloging my notes on the influence of Christianity on western esoteric mystery traditions. I mostly just used it to organize and format things though. Most of the actual data came from outside sources. For instance it couldn’t keep the translation correct when pulling up specific verses.

Seems like a good time to bring up that I just created [email protected].

Oh yeah I thought I was a sure winner until I saw the fluffs.

The Horus Guard’s beak glistens!

Every once in a while a guy will know something about women’s bodies that makes me go “ooooh OK that one’s actually really like kinsey 0 straight” instead of some other weird combination of interests that are approximately straight in a mostly possessive way. Sometimes I’ll hear “straight” guys talk about how gross vaginas are but then you hear a guy talking about pH balances and lactobacilli and it’s just really obvious which guy actually wants to be in one.

My parents told me it’s a hit list for when the fascists take over …but then they voted for the fascists.

An oldie from my nightcafe, took a while to get it to do this and be challenge eligible, I actually had to start with a wineglass.

On a semi related topic it’s not unusual for my patients to insist they were sexually assaulted overnight (despite all evidence to the contrary including 24h video feeds verifying no one did anything more than open the door and look in during checks), and when the cops take down their report they often describe knowing it happened because they woke up with a boner or wet vagina. Sometimes they also describe sleep paralysis (although usually they interpret that as aliens, demons, magic etc), but a looot of them primarily describe the experience as just normal genitals doing normal nighttime genital stuff. Sex Ed is really that bad, folks. Also the cops get really weirded out when I insist they take down reports for delusional shit because like. Yeah it’s fucking bonkers but it’s a human rights thing. a) what if they’re describing something that did happen but at some other time and they’re just too psychotic to get the details right right now and b) I do NOT want to be the person responsible for picking where the “too delusional” line gets drawn and if they’ve got any sense in their heads neither do they.

I genuinely can’t tell you what my thing is. Other than that deep down, I know the feeling and know that I have one. This has happened to me before. I have felt this feeling. I just don’t remember what about. I’ll keep you guys posted if I remember.

I literally have to take metamucil daily to not shit liquid multiple times daily. It is baaaaad. But when my stomach has been super irritated for a while because I haven’t been keeping up with it that first properly fibered shit feels like a kitchen sponge running all the way through me. I feel so clean afterwards. I’m convinced it’s the only real “cleanse.”

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My hill is that some people have made it far enough to realize they should do that with a neurotypical child but will hold back a neurodivergent one, especially if there’s some intellectual / cognitive disability in the mix. A looot of parents come to terms with having an ID kid by picturing that they’re going to stay their cute sweet baby forever. It can result in a lot of messed up situations and a little public masturbation is the least of them. I actually really enjoyed the “tard Wrangler” greentext despite the thoroughly stigmatizing language just because he actually completely nailed the experience of working those kinds of jobs. I’ve definitely worked with a few people who have some questionable traits but who do, in the end, have the patients best interests at heart, and it’s not hard to see how the job itself has kinda fried them a little. That anon is probably one of the coworkers I would make the Picard holding his head gesture at a fair amount but who definitely wouldn’t hurt a patient and in a heartbeat would jump into action helping me stop someone from smearing shit everywhere.

the only mental health thing I’m aware of being publicly available is commitments, and in most localities that requires an initial involuntary hold followed by evaluation and a hearing. and even that I think only counts for clearances, gun rights, and possibly licenses concerning public safety such as doctors, social workers, etc. rando employers should not be able to access that info afaik (this is a summary of the relevant part of the speech I give to patients when they ask if they want to change their status to involuntary and what the process looks like if the doctor disagrees that they need care, what their rights are in that situation, etc.). even with that idk that they can see what you were committed for just that you were. I’m not sure how hard they’d have to dig to get access to the mental health board evaluation that led to the commitment. I talked my way out of a commitment after an involuntary hold and have had a few incidents since where I even talked myself out of the hold to begin with and it never even affected me getting licensed (fellow cluster b PD here, hiiiii).

a more useful question would be,“out of all the ways you could make money why are you thinking about this one?”

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I have a decent amount of patients that label could apply to and I don’t like seeing it used at all. Literally just a few weeks ago I was consoling a patient who was angrily crying because they perceived someone had used it to refer to them. I’m unsure if it was reality based; they do hallucinate and I didn’t personally witness it but its far from impossible and they were absolutely distraught. Using it pejoratively AND censoring it means you knew it was fucked up and did it anyway.

tbh I’ve just accepted that superstitions are part of the human psyche. I don’t believe in “chi” in the sense of some energy that can be measured but there’s definitely some kind of pattern recognition in the human subconscious that’s processing the flow of the environment around them and the people in it that way. And a lot of cultures worldwide have longstanding traditions that guide the way they deal with that both in the sense of soothing that part of the subconscious but also trying to address whatever threat or goal in the environment that that pattern recognition is trying to draw attention to. I really enjoyed “Feng Shui Modern” by Cliff Tan if you want a really great explanation of concrete ways in which principles of that practice tend to help people feel safer in a space. He talks about things like the most common paths people take take through rooms, wanting to have your back against something solid, and not liking having beams and lights hanging directly over your head.

And personally I just try to keep the less concretely beneficial things to fun cultural traditions and other stuff I can connect with people around and avoid things that have been like, objectively disproven by modern science in some way or that would be specifically harmful to some specific circumstance / situation. So like carrying around an evil eye talisman is fine but using an herbal remedy that’s been found to be harmful is not. And I find it’s also helpful to think of it less in terms of specific effects / outcomes such as hexing, and more in terms of good energy / bad energy or good luck / bad luck. So the evil eye ward isn’t protecting me from some specific thing, it’s just a general hope that I’ll avoid toxicity in my life. And there’s a big mindfulness component to these things too; the talisman is also a reminder to yourself to avoid negativity and try to put positivity out into the world around you.

everything has outliers

I feel like boiling PLUS the Brita would be a pretty solid combo. Boil to kill everything then Brita to remove the remaining inert sediment. I can’t think of any metals or anything that there would be enough of in river water to hurt you after you’ve killed anything that was alive.

Oh hey! I started writing a porn about that.